Life as Liquid

Apologies for not posting in so long. I have been busy. I have been moving. But most of all, I have been lazy about posting. Sometimes you just don't feel like taking the time to put words on a page. Other times you convince yourself that you have nothing worth while to say. Worst of all, I have misplaced my camera cord so we will all have to wait on the photos. So here we go, lets get up to speed and back on track!
I have left the great plains of North Dakota. I bailed out of there on August 3rd simply because I was unhappy and I had made plenty of pocket change to get me by. But the leaving wasn't easy. It is always hard to walk away from that kind of cash, but at what point do I stop sacrificing happiness for money? That wasn't a road I wanted to go down. Anyways, August 3rd I woke up and still had to go to work. I had told my boss two weeks prior that this was going to be my last day. So after a 12 hour work day I packed up the truck and headed out at 5:30pm. Just me and the lonesome road for about 1,000 miles of North Dakota, South Dakota, Wyoming and Utah. I'm not sure what it was, the excitement of changing my stars or that I knew once I got out of ND I would never have to go back. But there was definitely something different about that night. I was unstoppable. 14 hours of driving. Through the middle of the night, through the middle of nowhere and I was giddy. I rolled into Park City right as the sun was rising and it was one of the best sunrises I have ever seen. I mean, beautiful. From PC it was another 30 minutes down to the house. I get back, shower, hop back in the truck and it's off to the airport. Catch a flight east. Transfer. Make it on the next flight to NY where the lady is there to pick me up. After about 40 hours of being awake and 24 hours of travel I was able to relax with a nice dinner, a lovely lady, and a long awaited shower. I can't explain how great that shower felt after a summer of 3 gallon 60 second showers. It was as if the heavens themselves had invented such a divine way of cleansing oneself.
Fast forward a few days in VT. A wonderful time. Beautiful weather. Beautiful lady. But all good things must come to an end. Time to head West. Load up the car and start out for the 36 hour drive to the land of the Salty Lake. As weird as it sounds, I loved this drive. It wasn't all that exciting. It wasn't that it was grueling. It was just a learning experience. About myself, what I want, what I had and where I was going. For the past few years my life has been extremely liquid. I go with the flow, changing course when I meet resistance. Never staying on the straight and narrow. I love this life, it leads me to some interesting places. But the best part about being so liquid is that I can change this life of mine to resemble almost anything. While the last few years as a transient have been great, I might try my hand at creating a bit more of a foundation somewhere...
Unfortunately, things aren't always as easy as they seem. Two weeks in SLC, the weather is hot and I am not well adjusted to being warm. I get a phone call, my boss in Alaska wants me to come back and finish the cruise season. Basically the entire month of September. Keeping my life as liquid as possible I agree and three days later I'm on a plane heading to the great land. So here I sit in Ketchikan Alaska. Writing about how I want to be more grounded, but truth be told I'm just not very good at that yet. It's going to take some practice on my part.
I feel like this post has been fragmented. Disjointed. Awkward to read. And that is probably because it is. Hell, I don't really like the title of the post but I can't think of anything better. This entire post feels like trying to put your right foot into your left shoe. But I imagine that it's only because I'm out of practice. I'm searching for the right words. Maybe I'm searching for more than just words. The winds of change are upon me and I haven't quite figured out what that means for me yet...